Embodiment is Beautiful
Hey there human!
How's the whole life thing going?
It's been a bit of an intense past few days. The energy that's coming through is strong and clarifying - but also feels a bit like a purge of all the things I've been avoiding confronting. The shedding & clarification, can be the portal to potential new space and possibility - so I'm trying to allow my Self to be in the process of it all till the wisdom, insight, and lesson comes through. I've been giving my Self lots of space and moments of sacred solitude during this time. Sending you love and moments of softness with Self, especially if you're feeling it in all the ways right now.
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Embodiment is beautiful. Messy is pretty. The truth is sexy. Snort laughter is cool. Being a dancer who trips over her own two feet is hilarious. Admitting I don't know when I actually don't know is freeing. Human, not perfectly curated projection, is beautiful.
The living expression of who and what I am needs no mask. If I'm moving from truth, it just is what it is, I am who I am. Living into my Self fully, means I have nothing to convince, hide, or defend. There's nothing to prove when you're just being who you are. The expression of truth is a felt sense, we can't fake embodiment. There is a vivaciousness and vibrancy that is felt when someone is connected to prana or their own life force. It's not something that can be bought or dressed up to appear a certain way - it's an ownership of life experience and knowing one Self that shines through the surface layers we often hide behind.
There is no one version of "cool", "beautiful", "successful", "artist", "muse", "teacher", etc. There is no one version of human. What's cool is what's cool to me, for me, and through me as it relates to the creative life force that moves in me uniquely. What's beautiful is me embracing all of who I am on every level. What is an artist, if not just someone who is in touch deeply with life - which is inherently creative. Screw perfectly curated projections, they are ultimately unsatistying and unfulfilling - give me life as it is. Life looks different on and through all of us, as it should be. If nothing else is established in my life but to know and feel what truth is on the deepest level - that would be enough. I give my Self back to my Self. Authenticity is being a clear channel to allow life to express itself freely through us. Reclaiming authenticity, often requires breaking down & moving through every thing that has been internalized that doesn't belong to us and essentially gets in the way of our unique Self expression.
I want to live my life as if it was art in its' purest form - a movement of the spirit and echo of the soul. Give me the raw and unfiltered heartbeat of humanity - not the deadening noise of confusion and distraction. Clarity is one of the most important things to me. Sending a clear signal and directing my energy intentionally not only feels good to my nervous system and being, but also it is more likely that my energy is able to be received in the way it was intended. I want my external movements to come from an internal intimacy and deep understanding. Confusion only comes when I'm functioning from a program that's not of my own making or when I'm unwilling to be witness to and be with a part of my Self that wants to be heard. A clear direction of energy and movement with a specific intention (a clear "why") is what I'm after. Otherwise, what's it all for?
This email wanted to start out as a message on embodiment. It turned into the interconnectivity of embodiment, authenticity, and reclaiming the Self - all of which requiring living into ourselves through direct experience. In order to release the old models, and live by our own rules, we have to make space by shedding what is not our own. The creation of space from the shedding then lends itself to conscious choice based on the truth of who we are. This is essentially the meaning of embodiment and wisdom - living what we know (through direct experience) to be true. Often times the depth of awareness comes from the journey of recognizing and reckoning with the moments we functioned from systems we didn't resonate with. The breaking down of these systems and the process of remembering who we are without them - eventually lends itself into acting on and moving through the world from that understanding. I was (as we all are to varying degrees) unconsciously programmed into many systems that I don't resonate with. I've dismantled many of them & deprogrammed my body of them - and now I see more clearly what is mine and what is not. This process to learn to truly see it for what it is has been one of the greatest gifts of my life.
I am the most me I've ever been in my whole life and this happened only through recognizing and releasing all that I've picked up that I'm not. I am my own muse as defined by me. I am an artist as defined by me. I am successful as defined by me. I am a teacher as defined by me. My definitions are based on me knowing my Self and embodying what I know through my life. My life is an extension of who and what I understand my Self to be. Because I will always be seeking to know my Self on deeper levels - my life will continue to widen and expand in correlation to my understanding of my Self. I'm excited for the widening and rippling out of my soul. I'm excited that who I know my Self to be and what has been externalized (relationships, "job", health, etc) are mostly in alignment. My internal and external mirror each other. I'm looking forward to how this non-linear remembering and reclaiming plays itself out through me so I can live into even more of me than I have understanding of currently. Here's to truth, embodiment, authenticity, understanding... and most importantly the grace and kindness that is cultivated with ourselves to get there. Thankful for the journey of remembering. Thankful for it all.
Thank you for your embodiment,
With love,
Bree (:
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*I share what I've come to know to be true through me in hopes that it's useful in some way. As always, take what resonates and leave what doesn't. (: